For the last week or so I've had some symptoms that I haven't seen in awhile. Every time that's happened, I go through a list in my head:
- Am I taking all of my medicines? at the right times?
- Am I drinking enough liquids?
- Am I overexerting myself without stress dosing with Hydrocortisone?
- Has anything changed in my schedule, meds, emotional health, surroundings, etc?
Lately, I've been noticing being lightheaded in the morning, some muscle weakness, an impatient feeling when walking or standing, and low cortisol feelings in the evening. I haven't struggled with being lightheaded for several years. And the impatient feeling when I'm on my feet is just like I used to feel when I would search for a place to sit because I didn't have any stamina after a few moments.
I feel far from an Addison's crisis, but these things tend to make me even more watchful of how I feel. In the next few days I'm going to work really hard to take my meds on-time. I've been skipping my afternoon 5mg dose of Hydrocortisone a lot lately because I forget and to me, that means I don't need it. However... I did make a big change lately in my thyroid meds- from Synthroid to Armour Thyroid, and that might have changed my steroid needs. After being really, really careful for a week, hopefully I'll see a difference. If I don't it'll show me that I need to get some blood work done.
Sometimes all this back and forth feels depressing. I mean, am I going to be doing this all my life? The answer is probably, yes. "Why can't it ever be easy?" my Addison's friends and I ask each other. Well, I wish dealing with disease was easier, but it's ok. I'm thankful that I do have medicine to make me feel well, and a support system to help bear the weight when it gets tough. Plus, I've had this weird, awful-but-wonderful, life experience that I can share with others.